aubrey pax

dumb

it’s quite dumb…

&esp looking back at some of this

thus far

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs.

Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DOG

sabre!

yeah, i remeber the night she was born…

9years ago in my laundry room..

mwahaha

crazy the time.

…yeah &those crazy deep conversations we often have, idk what to make them out too be. i guess well know when the day comes. look back and remember.

its crazy how fast time is moving…

everything just feels like yesterday,

&im not sure whats to come next.

the chapters just get larger….

i spend

half days sleeping “o

&&&i dont dig ittt at all.

updates?

i couldnt even say myself.

you know those days...

when you feel like everything is just wrong.

you feel odd around certain people, &question certain things.

weird things are happening or your mind’s just going crazy.

walk out at practice &gags in the toilet.

thats my monday right there.

i hope im just able to blame it on the weather or maybe because im catching a bug.

i hope this is just one of those days….

im staying in tomorrow. id like to recoup. get some projects & work done, go out to lunch with mama hurricane. just chill & be away while everyone elese is at school getting there education on with the same old fagg muffins.

i prey this doesnt end....

ive had the best days with some pretty awesome people.

new ones. old ones, whom are so much closer. unknown ones.

i wanna gather these people up in a pillow case and have them journey outta hear with me. it’d be a freakin party just collecting ourselves.

oh god.

they’re so special.

is it just me?

or have i been asked the question “how was your weeknd”

a gazzillion freakin bajillion times…yet, i either sit & try explain 

this weeknd that i encountered….or i just say “it was good”.

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i wrote something long

non’ish personal, meaningless, &confussing.

i didnt like it, so i highlighted it all &clicked delete.

 it made me think “what the hell is wrong”….

things are just absolutely crazy, i guess thats what you can say to describe.

everything’s perfectly okay; perfectly. just above &beyond thinking shrinks me…

&i think i need to see an aspect of somewhere diff. 

maybe my mind would clear….idk